These are a few lessons i have learnt over the years.
Just a few lesson i picked up
Hey y’all, so today am gonna tell you a story; it might get personal so get ready. So a few years ago, i got born again. I don’t know the date because unlike most believers, for me it didn’t happen in a day. Or at least, i didn’t believe that i was ( a believer) in a day.
So every Sunday i would sit at the pews( okay chairs but I’ve always wanted to use that word) of citam valley road and at the end of the service utter the words after the altar call. But then I’d leave go home and lead the same miserable life. Do you know that hollow feeling when you know are miserable, you kinda know why but just don’t know what to do about it? Talk about addictions to both the mundane and the big things, extreme character flaws, hundreds of different personalities and just a recurrent feeling of utter despair. I promise i said that prayer every Sunday for more than 5 years and nothing changed. In fact it all seemed to be getting worse the more i yearned for the salvation those words promised. Actually the few months before i got born again carry most of my regrets, guilt and life altering stupid decisions i made.
I have never known why but somehow the more out of control i got the more i knew i needed Christ. But one thing catapulted me into finally making that decision.
So February 2016 remember up to this point, i am not really sure if am born again or not. Does the number of times I’ve said that prayer( and meant it) make me born again? Do the things i do afterwards later into the week cancel out my being born again? This are the questions that kept haunting me every Sunday. So this day membership class is announced and for some reason i decide to plug in. Day 1 class 101. Never under estimate the power of this statement ‘ say hi to your neighbour ‘. This was the beginning of God working in my heart. My neighbor turned out to be an older guy and i have never known anyone so zealous for the Lord. I am an extroverted introvert, on certain occasions i am so lively and so this was one of those days since i talked to the guy and exchanged contacts and became membership class besties. When they say as believers we are surrounded by a cloud of witnesses; believe it. This guy’s life was a testimony and without his knowledge he got to actually work on my belief. It however wasn’t that easy. Mainly because the verse that God kept drilling in my mind was Matthew 5:29-30
“And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.
Matthew 5:30 NIV”
So at the time, i was in this relationship and i can probably blame it for my uncertainty in faith issues. I knew deep down the only way I’d get through the first step of salvation was ending it.Do you know how difficult it is to just leave a 5 year old relationship, five years!!! For no tangible reason; no fight no misunderstanding but just an inkling that God has told you so? How do you even start that conversation? This is the point I realised and i know it is difficult and possibly cliche; if you want something as badly you will fight for it as badly. I mean as human beings we are likely to lean towards the familiar, towards what we are already comfortable with. It took me years to get the guts to cut off everything that curtailed my growth in faith and it hurt. Obedience however is a proof of faith. Now am not saying i have it all figured out now, i am still stumbling sometimes, but i remain confident of this; he who began a good work in us will bring it to completion. One thing am assured of though, it is the best decision i ever made( i know another cliche) but still holds true almost 5 years later.
1. Believe. This is the first and most fundamental step John 3.16. Whosoever believeth shall not perish but have eternal life. It begins in your belief that yes Christ died for your sins you are sanctified by the blood of Jesus that poured on that cross. That is enough and trust me, the most important step in the right direction.
2. Mentorship. I cannot over emphasize the importance of this. Over the years I’ve acknowledged that this is probably the reason my faith was almost null by the time i ventured into the week. I had no guidance! So look for a believer you look up to. If you are as shy as i am, approaching anyone may be a daunting task. But trust me some human beings are surprisingly nice. Dont over think it. Just ask.
3. Pray. This was a difficult part in my journey. I felt so uncomfortable talking to myself in an empty room. I got past it however by writing down my prayers instead. But later on it got easier to speak because my room no longer felt empty.Remember to customise your prayers after all it is Your heavenly father and friend you are talking to. It may feel awkward in the beginning but keep at it. Using your own words your own emotions
4. Reading the Bible.
This will give you all the answers you will need in this journey.
5. Keep at it. The journey won’t be easy. In fact you may fall back into your past habits and ‘ feeling unsaved’ the way i did. But rise again and keep on moving. Your deliverance will come. An important lesson i learnt salvation is not feeling it is being. If Jesus says you are saved you are even when you do not feel it. Keep fighting the race, a day at a time. You are not alone, the moment the Holy Spirit convicts you to get born again he is with you and He promises to never forsake you till the end of time.